Day 7

This feels like about the millionth time that I’ve tried to kick the drink for good. 

I’ve managed to go days/weeks/months without it then BAM, back to square one... but it’s not square one as the more I continue this AF journey the more I realise how little, if any, joy I get out of drinking (perhaps only the skewed rose-tinted thought of it and even then who wants to have their mind consumed with thoughts of alcohol??) and how negatively it impacts on every part of my life, particularly my mental health and confidence. 

So this time, I’m trying something a little different. I’m going to blog, albeit anonymously, and really delve into how I’m feeling each day so I can learn to recognise any triggers, learn and reinforce that a craving is just a thought, it will pass, and I will get through it and come out the other side more resilient and stronger than ever.

My ultimate goal is to love being alcohol free, to the point that I’m so confident and comfortable in my decision that it really is a non-issue as my life is just so bloody amazing without it! It’s going to be a bit of a rollercoaster of a journey, letting go and forgiving myself of past mistakes, learning who I am without alcohol, and feeling all emotions without numbing and reaching for that glass (who am I kidding... bottle(s)) of wine. 

So cheers to being AF! I owe it to myself, my young sons, my husband and my amazing tribe.

Mrs MK xoxo 

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